Wow I haven't added to my blog sense I began starting it! I am going to work harder to write in it so that I can have a way of expressing myself. Carrying on.....
Only a few select close people know that we have been trying to get pregnant sense the middle of October. I thought that it was going to be pretty simple. I mean my last pregnancy was unplanned and happened so easily. I thought for sure a planned one would happen in the same way. Well it is now January well almost the end of January and I am still not pregnant! I didn't being to realize that when starting this new journey to add to our family it was going to cause me so much sadness and let down. I have been trying to hard to take the right steps in conceiving and after almost 4 months still nothing. I can't imagine how the couples who try for a year or even longer feel when struggling through all this. I want so desperately to give Lexie a little brother or a sister. I feel like there age gap is becoming bigger and bigger. Its hard for me to talk to Justin about being so upset when my period comes month after month. He wants another baby but I don't think it affects him as severely as me because I am the one that ends up obsessing about it each month.
My period was suppose to come today and yet it didn't. I took a pregnancy test a day ago only because I couldn't wait any longer and it came out negative. I am going to just have to wait and see I guess but I don't feel like its happening this month. It it turns out I am not pregnant I am going to stop and wait a month or two. Only because the due date would be getting into the month of Lexie's birthday and Christmas. Its hard for me to imagine putting building our family on the back burner but its something I am going to try and do and need to prepare myself for now.
I am going to try and make another post sooner rather than later. I am going to work hard to build my blog so hopefully you will hear from me soon!
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